I've been feeling this need to make every form of documentation a video. It's been a mode I've been stuck in. I've recently started using ChatGPT's custom GPT feature to build out a personal assistant. I immediately grabbed my camera. As I was about to hit record, I saw my face in the screen. I thought to myself, "I can make this look better with lighting." Setting up lights takes time. I know how to do it, but I've never done it in this space. I haven't composed a shot. Suddenly, the act of documenting becomes too burdensome and I feel like abandoning entirely before I get overwhelmed.

While it's really nice to receive the validation of others when they watch my videos, I need to remind myself that validation from people on the internet is not the goal. The goal is documentation. It sounds weird when put so simply but it's true. I can't expect myself to remember everything and I don't need a wide audience to see it. I can send links from my blog directly to who I want to see it.

The issue I created in my head is that this website needs to be this thing that exists only to share my portfolio, and it needed to be perfect. There's no reason to come here otherwise. No one visits my website. Why would they? I could start another website for my blog, but that's just more work. Even now, I'm looking at this blog template and it's asking for a thumbnail and main image. I don't want to have to make those things every time.

What I've come to realize in writing this is that I need to capture our thoughts and ideas quickly. It has to be frictionless. Ideas are fleeting. They come to me in a moment of inspiration. It's easy for me to lose track of the idea and forget it entirely. If the idea is worth pursuing, then I can take the proper steps to make it a reality.

I think I'll just hide my portfolio entirely. I'm a professional. I can do the work, but my work is the least interesting thing about me. This website will now serve as my personal blog.